Today marks my 6 month post-reconstruction on my ACL. And I’m not back in derby yet, although I am allowed to skate for exercise if I want. I will admit I don’t skate very often, just because it still makes my knee pretty angry— it’s pretty swollen and sore afterwards.
I decided a little over a week ago that the physical therapy routine wasn’t going to cut it for me anymore and that since I was so damn close to my 6 month mark that it was time to really step things up. I’ve built my strength up enormously, but my endurance has been destroyed. So I got back in the gym, no mercy given to myself. I’m taking spin or doing hour long endurance weight classes (Body Pump if you’re familiar with LesMills classes) almost every day… 5-6 days a week. The first couple days I honestly thought I might die, but it’s really getting easier and easier. My body has been quick to bounce back, which is a huge relief. I’m trying to concentrate mostly on spin right now to really get my endurance up, but I break it up with a couple Pump classes. My legs have gone from, “Fuck you, use the stall with hand rails,” to, “Hell yeah! We feel good!” And that’s encouraging. It’s nice knowing that my muscle memory is still there. My knee was a little sore the first couple days, but it’s even getting better and better. I feel better all around. And maybe I can wear my slinky dress to the Holiday party ;)
I’m seeing my ortho surgeon on Friday and he’s checking my knee, I’m not sure what he’ll say. He texted me last week to check in on me. Last time I worked with him about a month ago we talked and he did tell me that the longer I wait to go back to derby, the better. I really don’t feel ready yet. It still hurts to do lateral movements quickly, and then falling scares me. I did fall on it once a couple weeks ago, and it bruised and swelled, and my ROM was super limited for a week or so. I’d just rather wait another couple months and make sure it’s READY. I’ve waited this long, what’s another couple months? I’m really kind of over my team at this point anyway. That, and I want to be in shape when I go back… Not just in shape, but IN SHAPE. so there’s all that, too.
I don’t know… Maybe it’s the perspective I’ve gained having this time to myself. I never want to go through this this again. I want my knee to be at 100%. I don’t want to fuck it up again for a bunch of girls that couldn’t care less if I lose my leg or make it to Team USA. I’m doing this for me, not them. So I’ll go back when my knee is ready on my timeline, not theirs.
Six months post ACL reconstruction today!
Still not back in derby, but back in the gym on a regular basis… Fuck this being out of shape shit. I’m going to make this happen, whether it’s on my own or not.
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Underwater shoot with Becki and Naomi.
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Michele Bachmann comments on Obamacare.
I’m not a politics person, but this is pretty fantastic.
I just want to make a small update. I need to constantly remind myself that this recovery and rehab is not always going to be a straight road, nor will it always be a downhill path. I’m going to have bumps, twists, turns, hills, mountains even. I’m going to think I’m doing immensely better, and then for whatever reason, be it that I thought I could do more than I actually could, or I moved something in a way I shouldn’t have, or for seemingly no reason at all… I’ll have what seems like a huge setback.
Right now, my knee is in excruciating pain. It hurts to bend it past probably about 130°… Which seems like a lot, but is really not great when you consider I’m at about 150° or more. I’m not sure what’s going on with it. It hurt yesterday to straighten it. It’s doing better today with the straightening, but it’s swollen, and it’s definitely angry at me. So I drudge on.
I’ve put a tremendous amount of thought recently into when I’m going to go back to playing derby. I honestly feel that I’m going to extend my recovery period longer than I initially planned. Every time I skate, just skate, my knee gets inflamed and sore. I need to start listening to what’s going on and stop trying to solve everything by throwing it into the rink. My demons are not going to leave me through those 8 wheels. I need to understand this and try to find another outlet that’s going to let this knee heal while it needs to heal.
The next big debate for me becomes what do I do with my league involvement. It’s heavy right now. I run sponsorship. And it feels like a losing battle. It’s a thankless process when you’re paying money to do work to ensure something is continuing that you can take no part in. I may have to hang my league hat up for this next year. I don’t know how I should handle this. I love this sport, I love these girls… But l really can’t continue giving so much of myself and not filling the void I’m creating.
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“According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs, and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate beings condemning them to spend their lives in search for their other halves.”
~Plato’s The Symposium.
This is beautiful.
I’m still on torn hamstring restrictions… Bummer. I finally bucked up and went to physio, and that jank is strained pretty damn bad, I’m just lucky I didn’t rupture it. So no jumping, no jerky movements, no heavy lifting, no running, no quick moving, basically… Nothing except light stretching and shallow squats and light, light weights. But on the positive side, the rest has made my knee feel pretty good. It’s been popping, which I know is just the kneecap in the track, but the soreness has been really tolerable.
My hamstring got massaged and cold lasered at physio last week, there was a good amount of scar tissue from the initial strain. That made it feel a hundred times better. I’m still taking it easy (read: being lazy), but I think I’m going to try to start slowly ramping back up in the next few days. At least get on a bike or something.
I talked to one of my ortho surgeons last week… He said it’ll be about a year to a year and a half before my knee feels anything close to normal. And my surgeon that did the recon looked at things last week… Everything’s good, but he said normally he’d make someone wait a year before going back after an injury like this, he’s just been trying to fast track me because he knows how headstrong I am… And that the longer I wait the better off I’ll be. It’s all a little disheartening, but it also makes me want to kind of just wait it all out. RGIII I am not.
Then I think about winter… And snowboarding. Fuck. Will I be able to get out on the mountains for that this year???
Thanks for saving my knee, DonJoy brace… But fuuuuck. My thigh is still hating you a week later!
I skated at the FM practice last Sunday, and got tripped up doing plows in a wall. In my attempt to guard my knee when I fell, I stupidly let my other leg go straight out in front of me… Two things resulted from this. One: I know my brace works, I have a massive bruise on my thigh from where the brace slammed into it to keep my knee from twisting. That jank is comparable to a full derby bruise. Two: My other leg’s hamstring is STILL strained. It was having spasms this morning, but not painful… More like the muscle was just rippling for about a half hour. Strange. It is definitely feeling better every day, but it is no where near good. I have to be really careful with that leg when I bend to pick anything up. I may just end up skipping physio again tomorrow.
Destroying the body to save the soul :(
#1 Rule: Get into shape.
Get into better shape. Not yet. Keep working. More conditioning. Stronger legs. Better lungs. Jammers skate twice as fast as blockers. Jammers hit three times as much as blockers. Jammers fall down (and get back up) twice as much as blockers. Jammers need to be in WAY better shape than blockers. Blockers will always have fresher legs.
#2 Rule: Never surrender.
Blockers can smell blood. Never let them see you getting discouraged or tired. That gives blockers MORE energy. Always keep trying and keep moving. You will eventually escape. A hole will open. Just don’t give up. Your team is counting on you to just keep trying. A jammer who quits is dead to me.
#3 Rule: Move your feet.
A jammer’s main advantage is that blockers have to react to YOU. The second your feet stop moving in a pack, blockers can anticipate your movements. As long as your feet are moving, they can never be sure what your next move will be. Keep moving your feet in the pack…always.
#4 Rule: Follow your blockers.
When you enter the pack, don’t focus on the opposing blockers. Focus on YOUR blockers. Your blockers are going to open holes for you to skate through. The opposing blockers will not. If you are looking for a way out (and you are ALWAYS looking for a way out) then look at YOUR own blockers.
#5 Rule: Stay out of the danger zone.
Never skate outside when you are in the turns. Get back to the inside line on the turns. Don’t let blockers get inside position on you in the turns.
#6 Rule: Stopping fast is more important than skating fast.
If you are able to stop faster than your opponents (in bounds and out of bounds) you gain a much bigger advantage than being able to outrun your opponents. Master at least two of these stops: plow stop, turnaround toestop, hockey stop.
#7 Rule: Jam like a blocker. Block like a jammer. When you’re blocking the best thing you can do is think like a jammer. Where would you go? What would you do, if you were jamming now? The same goes for jamming. What is that blocker expecting me to do? When are they at their most vulnerable? Can I HIT THEM to get them out of my way?
Jamming is 1% physical and 99% mental. It’s all about intimidation. The best jammers are FAR more intimidating than the meanest blockers. Be intimidating. Be cocky. Jamming is about attitude. Time to be a star.
Quad Almighty’s seven rules for jammers changed the way I think about jamming. I stopped being afraid of it when I read these rules and started relishing it. (via malicemunro)
This is probably the best advice I could read today in regards to Jamming.