Injured Derby

Ask   This blog is currently a myriad of me dealing with my rehab of an ACL reconstruction (thanks to roller derby) while still loving the sport of derby... Mostly me trying to keep (and maybe find) my identity in the process of all this...

What happened to Me?

So here’s something about me: I’ve always struggled with my weight. I’ve never been a small person, I was never the skinny girl. It’s just not how I’m built. I remember being picked on all through late elementary school and middle school for my weight… And I wasn’t fat. I just had some baby weight on me still, per se. Kids can be cruel. Even when I was in the Navy I wasn’t thin. I’ve always had a muscular build— I put on weight in boot camp. I averaged about a size 12 throughout my early 20s. Then I went through a messy divorce- Horrendous. I was in nursing school at the same time and it was just plain miserable. I lost about 40 pounds during the process. I went down to a size 4 as an end result. I was tiny. Too tiny. I looked sick. My roommate, a good friend for years, would do everything he knew to make me eat. That was a lot coming from a guy— A guy trying to put weight on me.
I settled out around a 6-8. It was a good place for me. This was all about 8 years ago now.
I now live in an 8. I would say I’m doing okay, considering that I’ve managed to stay about the same size this long when this was not the size or way of eating and exercising I grew up with. Granted, I fluctuate about 5 pounds either way on the scale any given week. Occasionally I’ve fallen off track and went as far off as 7 or 8 pounds. My body bounces back within a couple weeks though. It all works for me.
Weight has always been a sensitive issue. I have to work out every day or close to it to maintain my build. I have to eat healthy and not indulge excessively. My body shows any cheating I do with my diet or exercise. I love that I’m strong and have an athletic build, but I hate that I present shitty choices like a skinny girl.
I was recently told that I’m overweight… It stung a lot because it came from that one person that’s supposed to accept me for everything I am and think I’m beautiful no matter what. Normally I would dump his sorry ass and move on, but I’ve invested so much of myself into this. And the comment wasn’t actually made directly to me— it was made to someone else and I just happened to overhear it. Does that somehow make it worse though??? I’ve confronted him with it. He said he didn’t mean anything by it and doesn’t remember saying it, it was probably just stupid guy bonding stuff. But it’s still sticking with me and still stings every day. I look at pictures like the one I just posted of the bruise on my hip… I see how flat I’ve managed to make my stomach and the curve where my ass meets my leg. And wonder when I’ll be enough or if I even ever will. I guess I just don’t know how to recover my mindset.

— 2 weeks ago
#overweight  #weight struggle  #weight shaming 

Both hips. They both look like this.
randompantsdesign I don’t know if the in-season is the best time to be thinking about scheduling a shoot! 😳

— 2 weeks ago with 3 notes
#roller derby  #derbygirls  #derby kisses  #derby bruise 

derbytastic:

Learn how to reduce injuries and increase agility with these stability exercises from Booty Quake at Roller Derby Athletics!
Full details are at www.rollerderbyathletics.com/prehab-stability

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— 1 month ago with 70 notes
So pretty much I hate my skates →

nexochan:

I have these bulky R3’s with stock hardware and SureGrip Aerobics. They’re great freshmeat skates but damn, I’d rather have them as an outdoor pair than be seen at a meet with them on. I keep dreaming of the Indoor Skates I’ll have one day…when this new city I moved to thinks i’m…

I haven’t heard anyone say anything good about the Antiks. The biggest complaint is that you lose your ankle movement, which in turn hinders your maneuverability. You’d be better off spending that money on Bonts. I don’t plug those because I skate in them (I have Vanilla BKs and love them), I just know that they get rave reviews from the skaters that have them.
You don’t need hard cushions just because you’re in a DA45. I have yellow/medium, and I STILL keep my trucks really loose. I could probably stand to go softer. That’s something easy to play around with though, cushions are around $10.
Poisons are going to feel super muddy on a wood floor. I skate on wood. Old, dirty wood… I use 88/91 combo, and only so soft because our floor is so dirty. They are 59s, and going down to that was an awesome decision.
Good luck!

— 2 months ago with 8 notes
#roller derby  #antik boots 

heartofanvil:

sadybusiness:

What is love?

Suzanne (accurately) defines love and WHO AM I KIDDING, I AM BASICALLY HERE FOR SUZANNE. 

Me too! Suzanne has a very special place in my heart.

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— 3 months ago with 20491 notes

It feels really good to be back on skates and playing in bouts… My knee is holding up phenomenally, I don’t even notice it usually.

On the flip side, apparently I’m too rough on my body and my shoulder in particular, because I now have a SLAP tear in my right shoulder. I’m not having surgery, just toughing it out and strengthening the muscles. It bothers me during certain movements and it’s way weaker, but I want nothing to do with another surgery anytime soon.
I’m fairly certain my ortho doc thinks I’m crazy.

— 3 months ago
#roller derby  #acl reconstruction  #shoulder injury  #knee injury  #just keep going  #back in action 

heartofanvil:

Ph oh yeah it’s just a technical thing… it’s not even like that

I just wanted this on my page so I could look at it whenever I please.

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— 4 months ago with 1042 notes
#hotness  #muscles for days  #damn  #yes please  #yummy 

rachaeldee:

rachaeldee:

Yoga for hip openers

hello friends! ever since these photos of me started making the rounds on tumblr, the most common question i get asked is “what are hip openers?” so i thought i would make my next guide focused on that. hip openers are poses that help to loosen the muscles that connect to the hip joints. remember that these muscles are often very tight and be careful not to overstretch yourself. loosening the hips happens very very gradually. incorporating some of these poses into your yoga practice can help to achieve both front and side splits!

ps. i tried to put these in a coherent order so that you can flow through them with one leg, then go back and repeat the flow using the opposite leg! 

  • standing wide-legged forward fold - put your feet wider than shoulder width and bend forward while keeping the back as straight and flat as possible. you should feel the stretch in your hamstrings - hold for a few breaths, then rotate around to downward facing dog.
  • lizard pose - start in downward facing dog and raise one leg up behind you, then swing it through to place your foot next to your hand, on the outside. keep your front knee at a 90 degree angle and sink into a deep lunge, with your back knee on the floor and leg extended. you’ll feel this one in your back leg’s hip flexor (along your hip crease) and also deep in your front leg’s hip joint. 
  • pigeon pose - from lizard pose, move your hand to the outside of your front foot, keep the knee bent, and pull your foot across so it’s near the opposite hand. bend the knee as generously as you want - the closer it is to being parallel with your body, the deeper the stretch. rest here, or go down to your elbows, or even lay forward as you advance in the pose. hold for 5 breaths.
  • seated wide-legged forward fold - extend both legs wide as far as is comfortable. rest here, and then bend forward with a straight back. i also like to stretch by reaching toward one foot and then the other.
  • head-to-knee forward bend - extend one leg and bend the other at the knee. gently bring your head to your knee while keeping your back straight and your core engaged. if you can’t get down far, just keep your back straight and hold for 3-5 breaths.
  • wind relieving pose - come on to your back, bend one knee and interlace your fingers on your shin bone, about two inches below the knee. pull gently toward your body, keeping your back flush with the ground and engaging your core. you can also rotate your knee gently here.
  • happy baby pose - bend legs and grab for the inside of your heels, and try to keep your back completely flush with the mat - this will give you the deepest stretch in this pose! you can also roll a bit to massage your lower back. 
  • reclining goddess pose - release legs from happy baby and let them fall open to the floor. try to keep your lower back close to the ground and put arms wherever is comfortable. relax here and appreciate your fantastic body! 

hopefully this helps to answer some questions about hip openers! these the poses i focused on when i was trying to achieve the splits, but having loose hips can help with all kinds of other yoga poses and can also release a lot of tension from your lower back. happy hip-opening! :)

mat: Manduka Pro Black Sage

clothes: sports bra - lululemon flow Y IV, shorts - nike, hoodie - lululemon scuba, socks - smartwool

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— 4 months ago with 35692 notes
derbytastic:

If your core dosesn’t improve after doing this workout say 3 times a week, then your doing it wrong. This looks painful but worth it

derbytastic:

If your core dosesn’t improve after doing this workout say 3 times a week, then your doing it wrong. This looks painful but worth it

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— 5 months ago with 244 notes